Little demon stuck in my head

The world is changing too fast…that makes you unable to catch up with it. There is too much things to tell…but somehow you just can’t speak a word in so sudden. Give up..i seriously give up my life which I expected. When you planning to do something you loved, it only put you in miserable. Those days I talk cock sing song play ping pong, it’s funny that I never do that before..ever..I feel like everything turns against me and I’m lost…into the world which  I unfamiliar with it.  I’m not feeling sad or regret or whatever shit..just want to speak for myself, it is so dam unfair.
Did I have a chance to work hard to get something that I want? No
Just a fucking chance…I wish I dream to have that man…
Such a fragile little thing..and it do exist.
But It flied into my face and vanished.